i will be still

(from my fb notes, Dec 2nd 2009)

Talking about listening and following my heart...
I actually heard it said something this morning, at least my heart agreed with this song..
My heart jumped and pretty much was alive again ... Alive means starting to feel that I want to cry though.

Yeah, what I need now is to be still ...
I was tired being tired, being disappointed and wondering why. tired to trust and not trust anybody. tired of walking alone.

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

Yet, I still think nothing I can do now.... Just be still.. and know He is God, He is with me no matter what. He is there when I feel I could use a friend. There when I need someone to talk, to share my heart. There for me to trust.

I will be still and know you are God.

sweet reminder

(from my fb notes, Sep 18th 2009)

It's a sweet reminder for me today and l want to share it with all of you.
God reminded me today how precious I am in His eyes, and how He wants to use my life to reflect His glory which has been my desire for all these years.

That was God's purpose to create us to bring back the glory for Him.
I took it from a book : " God's aim, therefore, was that man would so act that he mirror forth God, who has ultimate dominion. Man is given the exalted status of image bearer not so he would become arrogant and autonomous (as he tried to do in the fall), but so he would reflect the glory of his Maker whose image he bears. God's purpose in creation, therefore, was to fill the earth with his own glory. "

So, how is it to acknowledge God's glory on a daily basis?
My tendency is to view God as mainly Someone who helps, comforts, and guides, which He does, but my worship and adoration of Him is sporadic and shallow in comparison to who He really is. In our busy time each day, sometimes we forget to worship Him.. Or maybe we even forgot that we are called and saved to worship Him.. I sometimes did!
We sometimes forget that a vital part of our relationship with God was to acknowledge and worship His majestic glory.

I am glad that He is very faithful, as I've cried these days wanting to please Him with my life, He reminded me that the simple thing He always wants from me is just to worship Him.

So, if we've been so busy with our daily things. Let's take a bit of time to remember what God's main purpose in our lives : to glorify and worship Him.
(For all of you in Indonesia, yaaay..we got at least a week holiday).

"Because whatever you do, eating or drinking or anything else, everything should be done to bring glory to God."
1 Corinthians 10:31.

"For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say “No” to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, while we wait for the blessed hope–the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ, who gave himself for us to redeem us from all wickedness and to purify for himself a people that are his very own, eager to do what is good. " Titus 2:11-14

God bless you, my beloved ones.

Menantilah dengan sabar.
Mungkin anda memberi waktu kepada Allah untuk mempersiapkan, bukan diri anda, tetapi kekasih anda.
Biarkanlah bapa surgawimu melengkapi pekerjaanNya saat pria lajangmu tidak terganggu. Masalah-masalah dalam kehidupan seseorang yang diselesaikan pada saat lajang, membatasi stress dan kesulitan yang tidak perlu pada pernikahannya nantinya.

Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
Hebrews 4:16

the precious love letter and love songs

there's many good things happened after i broke up with my ex.

well..though it's been a tough time for me, i feel lonely sometimes too even til now.

but it made me really having Him only in my life. and i was reminded about how i need Him in my life.

that having Him means i have everything else in this world.

this "no boyfriend" period really taught me how to see myself as someone's precious in His eyes, to really dig what i have within, what's good and bad about me.

to run after Him, most all the time in my life.

and to make me realize and really2 know.. what kind of husband i want to have for my future.. though ... again, i know He knows the best for me, more than i know. but pretty much, it helps me to eliminate possibilities and chances.

i really thank God for it... really!

i really could feel, that Bible is my only love letter rite now, and worship songs are really my love songs.

could feel that i am so in love with Him .. Him, who won't disappoint me no matter what. who is always there for me. who loves me unconditionally. more importantly, Him whom I can put my hope in.

love gives me joy. hope gives me courageous. faith makes me feel them.

hmmm .. how i love Him ..

Proverbs 31:30

Proverbs 31: 30 really has been touching me since the first time I heard about it...

"Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised"

I have been fine with it, because I never felt that I was pretty ..

so, I thought.. " oh yeah ... the verse is really talking to me".."don't feel bad if i am not as pretty as others, bla blaa bla "

'til one day, a make up artist really did something different to me (well she did her job well), and I was transformed into someone I had never been, in a positive and glamourous way.

I felt beautiful ... hm... and was hoping that people would say that I was!

I kept thinking about it, moreover when a friend took a great picture of me... and daaang...it made me want to be praised even more.

And yet, pretty much, I was distracted when people didn't give a comment about how I looked...

uuuuuuh ......

And at that time.....I realized .. what it was in Proverbs 31:30 ....

I really understood that beauty in people's eyes matters nothing...

Oh yeah of course, as a Godly woman, we need to take care of ourselves, including our bodies, our appearances.. etc..

We are responsible to take care the Holy temple within us.

But ... we do it for God~ not to get people's attention, people's appreciation and comments. coz, they are all fleeting...

well, we can also do it for ourselves though..as we love Him, and know how precious we are in His eyes.

We need to remember that our values aren't about how we look, how we dress...

but .... as in 1 Peter 3:3-5

"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful."

I really thanked Him to allow me feeling beautiful .... as in glamour and woooow way..

For letting me to experience the "outter beauty" that I always thought I never had and could be!

For allowing me to experience Proverbs 31:30 ...

Now, I can really thankful to Him that it's enough for me knowing that I am beautiful in His eyes, no matter what people say about me..

That, I can take care of myself, and make the best out of me, only for Him not for others...

coz.. what He says about me that matters. only it! And never let people's saying bother me...

Yeah, the fear of the Lord.... a gentle and quite spirit ... those're what I am looking for... and surely the true beauty will come out from within.