the precious love letter and love songs

there's many good things happened after i broke up with my ex.

well..though it's been a tough time for me, i feel lonely sometimes too even til now.

but it made me really having Him only in my life. and i was reminded about how i need Him in my life.

that having Him means i have everything else in this world.

this "no boyfriend" period really taught me how to see myself as someone's precious in His eyes, to really dig what i have within, what's good and bad about me.

to run after Him, most all the time in my life.

and to make me realize and really2 know.. what kind of husband i want to have for my future.. though ... again, i know He knows the best for me, more than i know. but pretty much, it helps me to eliminate possibilities and chances.

i really thank God for it... really!

i really could feel, that Bible is my only love letter rite now, and worship songs are really my love songs.

could feel that i am so in love with Him .. Him, who won't disappoint me no matter what. who is always there for me. who loves me unconditionally. more importantly, Him whom I can put my hope in.

love gives me joy. hope gives me courageous. faith makes me feel them.

hmmm .. how i love Him ..

Proverbs 31:30

Proverbs 31: 30 really has been touching me since the first time I heard about it...

"Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised"

I have been fine with it, because I never felt that I was pretty ..

so, I thought.. " oh yeah ... the verse is really talking to me".."don't feel bad if i am not as pretty as others, bla blaa bla "

'til one day, a make up artist really did something different to me (well she did her job well), and I was transformed into someone I had never been, in a positive and glamourous way.

I felt beautiful ... hm... and was hoping that people would say that I was!

I kept thinking about it, moreover when a friend took a great picture of me... and daaang...it made me want to be praised even more.

And yet, pretty much, I was distracted when people didn't give a comment about how I looked...

uuuuuuh ......

And at that time.....I realized .. what it was in Proverbs 31:30 ....

I really understood that beauty in people's eyes matters nothing...

Oh yeah of course, as a Godly woman, we need to take care of ourselves, including our bodies, our appearances.. etc..

We are responsible to take care the Holy temple within us.

But ... we do it for God~ not to get people's attention, people's appreciation and comments. coz, they are all fleeting...

well, we can also do it for ourselves though..as we love Him, and know how precious we are in His eyes.

We need to remember that our values aren't about how we look, how we dress...

but .... as in 1 Peter 3:3-5

"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful."

I really thanked Him to allow me feeling beautiful .... as in glamour and woooow way..

For letting me to experience the "outter beauty" that I always thought I never had and could be!

For allowing me to experience Proverbs 31:30 ...

Now, I can really thankful to Him that it's enough for me knowing that I am beautiful in His eyes, no matter what people say about me..

That, I can take care of myself, and make the best out of me, only for Him not for others...

coz.. what He says about me that matters. only it! And never let people's saying bother me...

Yeah, the fear of the Lord.... a gentle and quite spirit ... those're what I am looking for... and surely the true beauty will come out from within.