holding on to patience

"Everything in its time"

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed

They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all

I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say:
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

by: Corrinne May

Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in Him. Psalm 62:5
The Lord isn't really being slow about His promise, as some people think. No, He is being patient for your sake. 2 Peter 3:9a
God is not a man, so He does not lie. He is not human, so He does not change His mind, has He ever spoken and failed to act? Has He ever promised and not carried it through? Numbers 23:19
So God has given His promise and His oath. These two things are unchangeable because it is impossible for God to lie. Therefore, we who have fled to Him for refuge can have great confidence as we hold to the hope that lies before us. Hebrew 6:18

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dealing with impatience

I used to get angry and irritated easily when :
- things don't go as I plan (when it should be finished, and how!)
- others keep doing the same mistakes I've been telling them not to do (at least in front of me >.<)
- people are late.

Now..I "think" I've done much better dealing with those stuffs.. At least..I need more time and more irritating things to get me mad.. *fiiiuuuh*

But...when it comes to wait for something.. Uuuuhhh...I am sooo impatient..
I always want an answer immediately! Messages' reply..and so on.
Also..with prayers. I am not a fan of His "wait, Eyn" answers >.<
Though I know..there is a time for everything, and I truly believe there is a time to wait too.
Though I keep reading and memorizing Psalm 37:7a "be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait for Him patiently to act."
I am still impatient.
It is not that I want to be impatient.
I just can't handle the feeling.
I pray that I can be patient! (And I am impatient too to be more patient. Haha).
And the truth is I am so unhappy about it.

I really long to be able to enjoy waiting for Him fulfilling His promises and answering my prayers.
I want to wait patiently for His time.

But how?

This morning..as I enjoyed my quite time with Him, read His love letter (and of course forgot for a while how impatient I was...) He gently spoke to me from the devotional I read :

" If we could but lower our estimation of the importance of our time, our plans and our feelings, we would find ourselves almost automatically more patient.
Patience is a positive trait. It is the ability to bear affliction, delay and interruption with calmness, perseverance and confidence in the goodness of God (Colossinas 1:11-12). It is inward peace as well as outward control. It is the submission of our schedules, our viewpoints, our dreams to the greater plan of God, with the conviction that He has a good reason for every delay he allows to come our way."

There you are,
I realized that..I've always wanted things to be done according to my time. >.<
Yup, that's what I need to do: to submit and leave all of my schedules and dreams to His perfect plans.. And..I'll take "wait, Eyn" for an answer, if it's the best for me. Sure..it is!